One Day

One day, I won’t be a baby’s favorite person.

One day, they will realize that I am not, in fact, the best cook in the world.

One day, they won’t want to sit down and eat dinner together at the table every night.

One day, Phaedra will lose her baby lisp.

One day, I won’t get to hear about all the boys that Phaedra ate lunch with at school.

One day, she’ll be much less delighted when she discovers I’ve cleaned her room for her.

One day, I’ll look back wistfully at the moments when they were all crowded around me crying at the same time.

One day, Bella will stop calling it “peenie butter”.

One day, they’ll scoop their own ice cream cone before bedtime.

One day, when Bella is sad, she won’t follow me around the house, snatching stray hugs whenever she can.

One day, I’ll miss theย the way Bella seeks out my lap to curl up in and crash when she’s really tired.

One day, I’ll miss sleeping awkwardly propped up with a sleeping baby laying on my chest, breathing on my neck.

One day I’ll miss my frantic middle-of-the-night, hurry-before-she-wakes-someone-up searches for the missing pacifier.

One day, we’ll wake up and there will be no kids in our bed.

One day, we’ll wake up and there will be no kids in our house.

One day, but not today.

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8 Responses to One Day

  1. Misha says:

    Beautiful photos and sentiments Janel. I wonder what your kids will think when they read these blogs years from now.

  2. Cherie says:

    I can always count on you as my kindred-mom-sista-friend. I think about this stuff all the time. Especially when I am about to lose my shit over something that only makes perfect sense in 3 year old logic. I get you, Janel. I get you. Thanks for always being dead on ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Janel Mills (@649point133) says:

      I’m glad *someone* gets me! Glad you like it. To be fair, this is usually the kind of stuff I think about after they’re all asleep, not generally during the daytime craziness, so good for you ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. Nikki Palmer says:

    Janel,
    I’m not going to lie…I broke down when I read this, because this blog is so real and so true. I think your incredible for just taking a few moments to remind all us readers that no matter our day to day drama is …this day shall pass. Not one day will ever be same (even if feels kinda like it) but you my dear are the bomb! I just hope you always stay the incredible Janel…and pssssssssss…you doing a freakin great job with those beautiful girls. Cheers!

  4. Peenie butter. Even peenie butter is sweet.

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